Children

Hello!
I want to have kids. now (mom, dad) don't freak out. I don't want them anytime soon. But someday. Now I know this is an odd thing ot be talking about after all the stress i'm in right now. so I'll give you a quick update.
So as some of you know Jono's car (the one he was driving and the car of his dreams) got repoed. Not through any fault of our own, but because his mother took a loan out on his car without telling us and then wasn't able to make the payments. by the time we heard about all this it was 2 months behind. So jono lost his car. I am ridiculously upset about this but am trying to just let it go. Not easy for me. So we had to get a new car. It's a new Hyundai Alantra. It gets pretty much the same mpg's as the hybrid we were looking at and cost less. we also were able to get everything covered so other then the monthly payments we won't have to worry about anything. I know everyone is going to have their opinions and that's fine but please understand that this is what we got and there's nothing we can or will do about it now. It was hard enough as it was since neither of us have car credit and have never bought a car before. So that is that. We have 2 cars again and can get on with everything else.

So like I said I want kids. Part of it is from watching these 4. I know I complain a lot, but it's almost out of habit at this point. I really truly love these kids for all the hard times they give me. I'm closer to the younger 3 and they really mean a lot to me. This is part of the reason I keep my job, and don't look for one where I would get paid more. But part of the problem with having 4 kids is that you really can't do anything. You can go to the park or stay home. That's about it. I don't want 4 kids. I want to do things with my kids. I want to go to disneyland, and dress them up. I want to be able to go out and do things without worrying so much. It would be amazing to watch them learn and to teach them what they need to know. I look forward to making their lunches and taking them to school. To bringing them after school snacks so that they don't get grumpy. To be able to take them to the library and check out book to read them before they go to sleep. I'm so much of a kid at heart that I like being with the kids. I know Jono would make a great dad. I can't wait to show them what I like and liked as a kid and to learn about what they like. But not for a long time. Just one day.

Hugs+kisses
mce